fuck my feelings and emotions. every time i’m interested in someone and develop real emotions for them i get burned. im always hopelessly in love and it fucking sucks.
I lie in bed and I’m wondering. I’m wondering what tomorrow will bring. I wonder about things I do not know. What’s next? Where do I go? I wonder why things happened the way they did and why from each other we hid. I wonder what could have been and what is still to be. I wonder if she’s right for me. I wonder why walls she shall build when all I want is her heart to be filled. I wonder if she ever wonders about me? Till I know I’m still just wondering.
So today I got hit on by two gay guys. Very aggressively I might add. Now I’m not gay nor do I have anything wrong with homosexuals but please fellas tone it down. Please do not point at me while deep throating a banana and then proceed to wink at me. Also personal space guys. You made me feel very uncomfortable. That is all. Thank you.
Anybody else have post traumatic stress disorder when thinking about their ex’s or is it just me? Like I have random Nam flashbacks and my ex pops in my head and I get all bumbed.